Emotions

Happiness sadness

anger,hate

Are you choosing which to debate ?

Depression, Rejection

Guilt, Fear

So mixed up do u want to hear

Raging, Crying

Snobiness, Coward

Is that what you wish to be powered ?

Bitchiness, Cockiness

Timid, Shy

So many things, do you want to pass by ?

Love, flirt

Adoration, Fascination

Do You Feel the creation?

Mixed uo, lost

Delusional, Torn

Is this how you wish to be born ?

Boredem, Brave

Hurt, heal

Which Emotions do u wish to feel ?

Got this from Deviantart.com

really liked it :)

lost in the swirls of the ocean

a child lost his father
a wife lost her husband
3 mothers lost their daughters
3 fathers lost their daughters
loss of 4 lives affected a huge society of people
this was a tragedy

Student from hiriya school went on a field trip. the loss of 4 lives have made a huge impact on our lives. there were three innocent students and the school's principal. its was said that the principal dived into the currents to save the student.. this has become the most saddest event since 2004 tsunami.almost everyone in male' attended the prayers for these lives
there was a girl who was innocent, kind hearted, loving, a girl who had a pure heart that lost her life in this tragedy. she was loved by so many, she touched so many hearts.
god bless everyone who was involved in this incident

First Canvas Work 2010

i just found this Picture :)
This is my first work on canvas it was done about a year ago in lale Youth international school.. i miss painting..

My Art

With Arms Wide Open

Under The Sunlight

Welcome To This Place

I ll Show You Everything

Is It Moving !?

Is It Being Wasted !?
WHY CANT IT PAUSE !!!

Directing beats of the heart

Adrenalining rush
Flowing through her veins
Feel the Exhilaration as u crash the cymbals
Nodding her head to the beat.
Escape the world of having to speak
Letting 2 instruments communicating
With such inspirtaion

The erythematic beat sounds
Powerfull bass.
Like an invisible aura
Directing beats of the heart
The rythm Climaxes
Like pulsating souls
This is the final test.
The rhythmic beat,
The final reveloution

got inpired by the drums today!! i played with my teacher and he played the guitar and i played the drums it was so AWESOME !!!
never felt that Happy in a long time !!!!

THE FIRST SONG I LEARNED HOW TO PLAY ON THE DRUMS IS ZOMBIE BY THE CRANBERRIES

OH SHITT my blog

thats was what i said 10 secounds ago before i went into panic mode !
F**!! i was hanging with my cousin and we were just messing around and turns out that when u google a person's name the whole profile comes up everything attached to the email adress i guess !! OMG I AM SO STUPID TO HAVE NOT KNOWN THAT O_O !!!! anyways just glad that i found out before someone else !! THIS MEANS THAT i can post HALF of the stuff that happens!! gosh how fun is that !!!! i just deleted about 8 posts on my blog!!! NEED A STRONGER PRIVACY settings in blogs like seriously!!! from now on there wont be any FUN picture or real life stories i THINK or maybe i shall just mention the good stuff!! yippy !! that is so fun NOT!!!!!
right now i am just thankfull that i found out about it before anyone else did! atleast i hope!

Dream Weaver

as I watch the sun fade away

behind the palm trees

that line up on the sea shore

I begin to take stock and prepare to leave;

opening up my bag,

with a view to clear the excess baggage,

I find all I have is words andthat does not seem to be enough!

a gentle breeze blows softly

ruffling a few leaves andspreading a peaceful feeling

that I never knew before!

clutching a pencil in hand,

plenty of thoughts,plenty of ideas,

I’ve got so much to say

;words unspoken, lurk around

like hungry wolves,

ready to devour the soul

the moment I give in!

sitting here, I watch the people

play games that I don’t understand

;games that don’t mean a thing
yet I stand in their midst

; alone with memories of what, once was

,searching for reasons,

to why and because

I search for a reason and a purpose
to keep going on for more!

as the night falls and the stars come out,

I close my eyes and climb into my starship

to go to a faraway land, leaving everything else behind,
where I am safe, till morning light, filters in flying higher than the stars,

I close my eyes

and in this psychedelic mind space,

weave many a dreamsto write the chapters of my life!

inspiration by poetryoflife.com

Summer break

This was just only 2 days of my summer ! i am VERY lazy to write more so i hope pictures explain :) !! LOL

birthday june 28th (16)

as u may know my birthday was june 28th.. i hide my birthdate on facebook and looked like NO one actually remembered !! it was shitt!! anyways i think now i know hu my true friends are !!ERIN!! <3 was the first to wish me and then caroline, she gave me this card which had really nice words on it !it was the sweetest thing anyone did for me all day:) other than that i ended up in tuckshop almost ALL day with hanna,adam and harith..................i should be more thankfull.. but not tht day i guess! all my maldivian friends forgot it. and someone mentioned tht it was my birthday on my wayy and then they all wished..

i guess sweet sixteen aint so sweet :/

i wonder

sometime i wonder where i ll end up in 5 years time. i m might end up with the guy i love (HAHA NO WAY IMPOSSSIBLE) Or my current crush (these days it seems impossible too).other time i wonder what am i doing still thinking about you. or what am i doing thinking tht u ll be back.. OTHER TIMES i think i might end up as a green head.and probably wasted somewhere along the green horizon .but i think in 5 years time i ll be as far from home. i think i would probably be living in hawaai ALOHAA BITCHES !!! i would love to live there !! sounds like a woot..

Exeat With Family

first thing i did when i got out of here was BUY THE FONE !!SO SO FAINE !!!!! i enjoyed the maldivian food for a while.. its been so long since i ate roshi and rihaakuru.. i used to live on tht.. :( anyways i got to hang with my fav cousin REEM!!! i love u . but soon enough u ll hate me but please dont !! we went shopping in midvalley and a couple of other places.we went into diffrent shops and tried on cocktail dresses...oh i am NEVER going to wear one of those in public !!
hmm i am starting to think tht my brother is starting to treat me as a little sister.a good thing tht he is getting arried and finnaly settling down with his life..
it was not a F.U.N exeat compared to my friends hu where drinking flamming lambourgini's and getting lost in the jungle

Ktj Room Wall

Sunday Night !!!

wenn and i went to eca night. i was boring well sort of..AAA and something O_O happened. see there is this guy tht i like. and and O_O oh god .O_O he was there and we were making our way toward the exit sign cox wenn had to meet up with a very unexpected person..and he was walking with me up the stairs and i didnt notice it for a while. O_O STOOPID ME !!! dammit and his smile aaaaa SO NICEEE!!!! couldnt sleep till 2 o'clock lastnight! should have asked him to walk me back. well tht is what wenn said tht i should have done :)
Came back to baby house and we threw pop pop at nabilaa !!! HAHAHA tht is watcha get :P heheh daymn she is fast i chased her like shit..!! she went in the surau and then jumped out of the window and i was so blurr! :P nabila !! i am gonna get u somehow i still have left overs from lastnight !!!! :P

The Place Where I Come From [Maldives]

Capital city

where the lights dont sleep
small town got big drama
the place i come from
the place i miss the most ...

Crystal Clear Water..

An Island In The Middle Of Nowhere.

Sunset In Maldives

best memories in uncles boat



Smile little nemoMore than One Fish In The Sea

For Someone Special

its been a year since we met
we have some precious memories together.
we have had a tender relationship
we shared something invincible
one day ,something happened
we chose our separate paths and still remained friend.
it hasn't been easy having a part of me stolen..
have been walking around trying to fill the empty hole in me
the pain is no longer there..

you are something special...cox u are a great person inside. people just dont see it
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUPERMAN !

IPHONE 4 !!!!

i am so excited to get my new iphone !!! yaay !! time to get rid of my cheap nokia n97 mini !!!! eeeeesssh.. mom is buying an iphone 4 for my birthday. i m getting the phone earlier...she is buying it cox i am GOOD GIRL!!! XD muahahahaha.
things i am gonna do when i get it
1.install TAP TAP and games
2.Customize and make it sexy !!
3.get digi
4. PLAY GAMES ALL DAY LONG !!!

Sucess

my first netball game out side of ktj !!! ground breaking sucess score ktj:17 Nexus:2..i m not being sarcastic but i somehow pitty then cox they only had 7 ppl on their team and they didnt have a propper netball court :(.. !!!! i scored 5 baskets in 10 mins !!! i am not a goal shooter but i tried :) !!! love the team. its sucks tht i am not going to be on it after a couple of weeks cox i am turning 16 !!!

Lilith Love

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GBF!!!wishes u all the best!!! 16 years huh..awsumness !!! I love you & ur boobs !! take good care of them :) !!! GOTH lady in the house !! everyone goes wooot woot.. & umwah..
You are my bestfriend..i d like to think tht we share something Great~! varah loabi vey !! u ve been the greatest friend ever. if i were in lanka right now i would be thrwoing one of those redbull parties for u !!!! <3

Harmless Fun (sunway)

As For usual shopping with friends always gets boring and end up wanting to go home..Today was diffrent i went shopping with mahi. didnt have a certain place or a certain thing to buy. we just walked from random shops and fooled around. we went to a toy shop and took swords and had a sword fight and 2 kids were staring at us i bet they were thinking wat the hell is wrong with them.
went to a book shop and saw some typical Annoying maldivians acting EXTRA weird and errrr just weird. they were going like OHH MAAAI GAAWDDD WHAAAI WHAAAAI did u Leave him WHAAI..we acted like indians ended up laughing like shitt..cox they taught tht they were the only people hu understood the language..
Stalked People..!! i shall mention here! aishu discovered that CO2 is NOT carbohydrates!
Went to the Game Arcade. (i dont remember the name of the place which is right next to TGV cinema in pyramid). and played basketpall shooting thing..scored 104 points!! yay !! awsum fun.. Aishu is hilariouse !! took picture of dhaathu kissing jonny dep's poster ! XD
Pirates of the caribbean stranger of tides: watched tht movie at 12:30. was so tired nearly fell alseep.but the movie was great.came back home around 4:30 O_O not sleepy anymore
6 Mins ago i strated believing in secound chances.. someone hu i taught was mad at me. someone hu meant alot to me is talking to me and well i hope he is doing fine :( i really do. i cant believe tht u can still share things with me after all that happened. O_O its probably a good thing..ended up skyping ALL NIGHT !! and NO SLEEP I NEEEEEEED SLEEP NOW..

T.A.M.N. [Thadhoo/Almi/Mahthu/Neyni]

picture taken on thadhoo's farewell

Memories with friends last forever, even though everyone had to split up. i had an awsum time with you guys !! got suspended together. skiping extra class, roadhamahu kuraa kanthah, 3.9.9 , neyni's house balcony, saying that i m going to thadhoo's house and sneaking out, bomba
!,Goddesses&Reapers, Getting Scolded by teachers cox we meet up with people on the ferry, accidently on purposly missing ferrys and getting late to school, skipping essemble on top of toilet seats, breaking into principals office, redbull party !Fighting in bakaaz toilet. Myhun aa dhimaalah bevun !!! (best one ever).. dancing on tables, bakaaz toilet, raping almi and neyni!! and many more ~!! I Love u Guys!!

Thadhoo: punk= hu likes pink and goes CRAZY when she is hyper O_O
Almi: Cute=loves anything that is blue. also known as assple. also goes insane when hyper
Mahthu: Dark=loves green. the one behind all the plans.
Neyni: Gothic= Sexy one with Amazing boobs O_O!! (love ur boobs).. naughty too

The Human Heart

The Eye

Through The Eye Of Perspective
A Thousand Things Are Visible
A Single Blink Of The Eye
Endless Time Ticks
Stop & Stare
The Past , a Stoned Rock
so What The Hell

Eternal Colours of Blur and Red
Flames of Love and Hate
Through the Eye
Gods Creation of Life & Nature
Eye. Enables To Seek
The Beauty and Ugly

Tear of Laughter and Pain
Expression , Emotions
Thourough The Eyes

Emotions

[Current State Of Emotions]

I Have a habit of drawing my feeling. Drawing is the way i tend to communicate with my feelings. i express emotions by drawing my feelings. so i have this book that i draw stuff and its like my diary. i don't use words cox words are too boring ...so i hide them in my work of art. i am not pro in drawing still life and scenes. Lemme tell you what it is a little bit about. i got the inspiration when Wenn invited me to her place over the exeat and i Got fucking excited about it and i drew all sorts of crazy stuff to express the CRAZY fun we are going to have !!!!

NAQUIAH DAY

Wenn & Naomi!

nqh day was kiddy fun and AWSUM..The prefects Arranged some game for us to play on the rugby feild. we had WATERBALOON FIGHT / unknown floor and water mixed weird game i dont know the name of it /walking on chairs/ 3 legged race and some game with a baloon !!! i shall mention here thtt i am VERY VERY scared of baloon !!! they just move in the air !! whyy howw !!! FREAKY!!!!!..i would say tht it was the best nqh day ever !!!!!!. the water balloon fight was fun though we didn't win. we were supposed to make a circle and protect one person from getting splashed by water and it was my room mate Amila.. we choose her cox she is the tiniest and the most dry person in the place. she was squished in the circle. i bet she could barely breath.. i put flour+water on wenn's boobs hahahahahah!!thank u so much Astrid for making my face like a cake NOT it took me a about 30 mins to get it out of my hair!!!!!!! i ended up getting soaked in water and managed to get sticky substance made out of flour and water, all over my Favorite shirt!! i was wearing a black shirt which was white in the end of the day..

The Challenge

The Glaring Sun Staring At My Face
The Cry Of The Body, Sweating in
Look Up At The Angry Sun And realises
My Insides Burining In Agaony
For Sure Time Runs
The hands Of Time Cannot Be Turned
The Tapestry Unwound
Run away Right Or Wrong D Dont Care
Its The Physical Challenge Against Me and Myself

SPORTS

I Always Loved Physical completions !! its challenging!! physically challenging things are my therapy to get over emotional shitt..so if u see me running around the school in the evening tht means tht i am emotionally in a bad place or just bored. i never taught that i could run 20x400 meters in 12 mins.. couldn't have done it without hanna !!!! i cant thank you enough for the support !! i would have crashed down if it wasn't for you. Somehow i realised that the messed up stuff in my past doesnt matter.. As i was running that was when it finnaly hit me, for months and months i ve wondered why i cant get over him and it only took just a single millisecond to realize it !! it was when hanna said "malys, let all ur anger and pain out. remember what he did to you and the bitches."..... BOOOM and then she HIT my head and that was when i started to think straight... Years from now i bet i can point at that moment and say. "that is when it all changed." i guess its a good thing that i got sick and tired of going through everyday feeling like i made the wrong decisions...feels like a HUGE weight has been lifted off my shoulders..i found out that love fades. and when it happens all thats left to get over it is time and friends. AND THEN BOOOM BOOM the forms a heartless person.. all this i realise while running.. hmm it does work !

HOME

<------ My Wall

my bed my bed my bed my bed my bed my bed my bed my bed

i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u

i missed my bed the most !!!!!!! XP i m home with my bed. OH LOL !! my mom called me fat O_O i am not fat. she said tht i ve grown up a bit O_O no i am still the same old little skinny malys.though my jeans and shirts are small for me now so i am going SHOPPING in PYRAMID when i get back to malaysia.yay BUT I AM NOT FAT I AM SKINNY

i met my witch almi and school witches yesterday.. i m glad u guys didnt eat me alive :P . i m used to being around the evil almi and not the angel one.urm someone has a new haircutO_O. haha u witc.hmmm wats next is sleepovers and picnics and drama with friends :) i m used to tht..

COFFEE HOUSE WITH MAEHA AFTER A LONG LONG TIME !!!! the BEST waffle served in coffee house. our normal hangout place. i m glad i got to catch up with u.. i am going to kill u today cox i worked so hard to get to ur house on time.gaiga huri baarulaafa dhunjahaafa dhiyaee oa !!!!!!i ll make u pay !! hahaa i still remember wat u said and i walked so fast like shitt hahahahahaahahahahahahha XD..my redbull buddy!!! abadhuves redbull eh hifagen hunaany XP btw i love ur place but its located in a area tht i dont wanna step foot into. O_O

ONE DAY JUST ONE DAY HERE AND I SAW HIM TWICE !!! MALDIVES IS SMALLL

IN THE COULDS

aaaaaa! i had a blast today...took some awsum pictures which i will upload later.. SPACE SHOT was the best thing ever. i never told anyone tht i was afraid of heights. when i reached the top of the ride i imagined myself tht i can get over my fear of heights, i told myself tht somehow i ve been through worse nd yet i think i have..when it fell and in tht split second i taught about the bitter sweet memories and let it all go.. felt like i was invincible.. SNOWLAND.. hahaha aishu's EPIC fall !! haha i crashed down laughing!! it was a definitely a day tht was memorable there was alot of falling spinning flying screaming laughing freezing walking EATING BURGERS !! throwing snowballs, getting lost, travelling,

DA VINCI CODE

i m working on breaking the DA VINCI CODE !!!! AKA DA HANA CODE!!! lol i just named it :) give me time and i ll crack the code MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH...! :) btw i would love to mention tht i had a GREAT time last night running up and down the hills and running in the middle of the grass field and running away from the security guard...oh i almost fogot !!!! it was FUN runningwith ur slippers its like a BOKIBA.. lmao!! thanks for being such a great friend and helping me get through the whole situation tht has been bothering me for months..i couldnt have gottenover it without a friend like banana ! :) u are awsum because


1.u make me smile when i m sad


2.u tell me to SHUT UP!


3.Maldivians attract to u


4.u scare the hell out of me


5.u are FUNNY!!!!!!


6.u are racist but u never mean it


7.i cant be emo around u. cox u ALWAYS find a way to make me laugh


8.U FEEED ME !!!!!


9.u helped me through the whole situation i had going with ---


10.u open up to me once in a while and i like the fact tht u do :) trust me :)


11.Lepak Babi/

Back On The Tracks Of Running

the adrenaline rush, the sweat dropping down my forehead, the physical torture of sports.a single sound of the whistle the battle begins, in that secound all tht matters is the track and my legs moving to the beat of my heart. breathless and tired but still keep going, never look back.i can feel my lungs screaming in agony telling me to give up and stop but in this life i tend to never give up.i m running away from the mistakes,heading towards the waving flag.sports is everything that matter to me before my life got all messed up.i am getting back the life i used to have.i can Never get it All because urmmmmm long story ehehehe.Secound Place is not a bad start i guess...i hope i can do better next time.Sonya (choco) is PRO !!!!!!! <3 (i m gonna getcha one day !!).. i admit tht i like nqh. because tht they all try their best even though we baby house.even though tht is the case i wont let them >2.4.6.8 WHO DO WE APPRICIATE!!!GOOOOO NAQIUAH !!!

Maybe-KC

I'm strong
But I break
I'm stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

Someday
When we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's OK to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe, maybe
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

I'm confusing as hell
I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

One day
We'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then

I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you're mine

Maybe, love maybe

MY FIRST POST

>hey guys this is my first post! i deleted my old blog because there were a lot of work to do on it so i started new with a new URL.. i fogot how much i loved to blog.
hmmmmmm the facts are tht i am hoping tht this will be my therapy since i dealing with the same concept that i was dealing about 2 years ago but this time its NOT the same, last it was DIFFRENT i am hoping tht blogging with keep me away from a mental asylum.!! hehe i am not kidding i m not ready to go to a mental asylum YET! :) if i do i am draging almi, (my bestfriend for 9 years) because u are in need of one too!